2004-02-24 : 10:40 p.m.
my car hit 100,000 on Saturday

Current Song: "Exodus" Evanescence
Current Rant: I should be sleeping and I'm not
Current Obsession: I'm obsessionless

I said I was going to go to sleep being that I feel like I'm going to die, but instead I'm writing in here. Go figure.

I don't even know what I have to say. I don't remember when I last really wrote. I don't remember anything. I am so damn confused. My life really doesn't makes sense right now. This time, I know that I'm the problem. I'm just confusing myself so much right now. The funny thing is I'm not even sure about what.

I'm at home right now and very happy to be here. I am disappointed that I have to go back tomorrow. I enjoyed my quiet afternoon procrastinating on my euro paper which I finally started around 4pm and finished around 10. 6 pages. I am proud of myself. Of course, I also watched Trading Spaces, SWITCHED!, some of Life as a House (and bawled my eyes out at the end), and American Idol. (ok, I admit I also listened to 24 just because my mom was watching it.) I have to say I think I accomplished a lot considering.

I was in so much pain last night/ this am it wasn't even funny. I had the worst stomach cramps I have ever had. I couldn't even walk. I almost basically fell over when getting up to swollow the 3 advil I got out of my bag from bed. It was so bad I actually considerer just trying to swollow them without anything. I then stumbled back to bed and curled up in a ball and tried not to cry (though tears were dripping from my eyes). I managed to fall asleep and had really drugged dreams until the pain subsided. I woke up this am and it still hurt, but I felt better. I took more advil and I've been pretty ok today, but not completely pain free. Last night was scary though. I almost woke Kat up by falling over... ugh.

I gave my speech this AM after the comm test, though I can't say I did well. I basically had no voice and my stomach was still hurting so I wasn't very happy. After that class I ran back to the room, grabbed my stuff, and left for home, where I am now.

I wasted a few hours, spent some time at the Horse Connection hoping to find a bounce pad, but I'm not spending $96 when I can get a decent one from Dover for either $39 or one for $29. I'll have to get there to see. One thing I really do want to buy though is a pair of Dansko barn clogs. I tried a pair on in the used connection, but they were a little big and I wasn't spending $80 for used shoes. I'd rather spend $110 and get them new. They had a pair for $40 but I couldn't get my foot in them. I figure since the size 36 was too small and the 38 too big, I need a 37? Well, that's what logic tells me. They are SO comfortable though. Hopefully I can get my mom to split the cost with me or something. I WANT A PAIR!

You know what bothers me? I was one of the early new Evanescence fans, a fan before the CD came out though not long before. Now everyone claims to be Evanescence fans. It bothers me greatly.

Well I should sleep, but here is a survey instead.


1. Full name: Sarah Elizabeth

2. Most Common Nicknames: sar

3. Eyes: blue

4. Height: 5'3.5"

5. Hair: brown

6. Siblings: seth

7. Do you like to sing in the shower: when I feel stupid. only at home though, not school.

8. Do you like to sing on the toilet: uhhhh, no.

9. Birthday: March 26, 1985. Don't ya forget it!

10. Sign: Aries

11. Address: uhhhh, not here

12. Sex: female

13. Righty or lefty: righty

14. What do you want in a relationship most: Love, Trust, honesty

15. Have you ever cheated on ur homework: sure. copying other peoples was far better (that or just doing it while mcbride went over it worked too)

16. Marital status: Single.

17. Do you own a car: yes. i love my car even if I've hit 100,000

18. What kind of car do you want: new corolla or a honda


19. Movie: Life as a House, White Oleander, Seabiscuit

20.Song: "You" Amy Lee

21. Band/singer: Evanescence, The Juliana Theory, Goo Goo Dolls

22. TV: Alias! ER

23. Book/Novel/Comic: White Oleander, Seabiscuit, Horse Heaven

24. Actress/actor: Jennifer Garner and Catherine Zeta-Jones/Victor Garber

25. Food: shrimp! green grapes, strawberries, gala apples

26. Number(s): 10

27. Cartoon: none

28. Disney Character: minnie mouse

29. Color: green

30. Do you plan on having children: nope

31. and/or adoption: nope

32. Do you want to get married: married, maybe. in love forever, yes.

33. How old do you want to be when you are married: see above

Where is 34???

35. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: i wish

Where is 36???

37. Do you have a crush: sadly no

38. Music/TV: tv

39. Guys/Girls: guys

40. Green/Blue: Green

41. Pink/Purple: purple

42. Winter/summer: Summer so I don't have school

43. Night/Day: day

44. Hangin Out/Chillin: hanging out

45. Dopey/Funny: Funny

46. You know I'm around when you hear: nothing, either that or people implying I am a terrorist or a communist or just cousin it

47. What school do you go to: arcadia

48. Have you ever smoked cannabis: Nope


49. Are your friends nice: Nope! ;)

50. TaLLeSt person in your group guy/girl: everyone is short except when they are not

51. BeSt aLL aRoUnD pErSoN: TOBY! Yes, my puppy is a people too.

52. Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? Toby, aunt helen, yumi, eunice, mom

53. What do you think of soul mates: Sometimes I believe in them and sometimes I don't

54. Is it right to flirt if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: eh.. nah

55.What was the last thing you cried over or got teary-eyed about: watching Life as a House today and last night when my stomach wanted me dead.

56. What's something about guys/girls you don't get: I don't understand people in general...

57. place you are happy: with horses or at home in bed

58. Why: bc

59. What's an object you can't live with out?: computer

Where is 60???

Where is 61???

62. Diamond or pearl: A diamond lasts forever

Where is 63???

64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: nope

65. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: sometimes

66. Do you have any Autumn: wth?

Where is 67???

68. Whats the song right now: "Drop in the Ocean" Michelle Branch

69: Whats the last 4 digits of your phone number: 0053

70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon: will i marry?

Where is 71???

72. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes

73. Favorite sport: Horse Racing

74. What makes you happy: horse

75. What's the next C.D.(s) you're gonna buy?: Norah Jones

76. Do you wear contacts or glasses: neither

77. What's the best advice given to you: who knows. i need good advice people.

78. Have you ever won any special awards: uhhh...

79. What are your future goals: earing lots of money and being happy and in love (even though that love might be a horse)

Where is 80???

81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better: funny

82. On the phone or in person: In person

83. Hugs or kisses: hugs

84. What song(s) seems to reflect you the most: who the hell knows

85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave certain things to and what: no clue

86. Do you have any enemies: myself

87. What is your greatest fear: Failure

88. Would you rather be rich or famous: rich

89. What time is it in

Albania now: 4:16 A.M. -- sure why not

90. Have you ever been in love: nope

91. Have you met Santa: Of course!

92. If ET knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked to use your phone what would you do: i probably wouldn't answer the door.

93. Last time you talked to the person that you liked: n/a

94. Do you have any pets: TOBY! cagney, cleo, juliet, emma, lexus

95. Do you have any instant messaging services? AIM

96. Last time you were depressed: today

97. Are you an alcoholic: No

98. Who sent this to you: Merv

99. What do you think of this person: I don't really know Merv, but I used to talk to him at the AOL JR Horse Racing fans board years ago.

100. Do you want your friends to write back: yes please

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