2004-04-28 : 11:31 p.m.
Oh fuck life


Current Song: "Disarm" Smashing Pumpkins
Current Rant: See below
Current Obsession: blaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

Today was just one of those crappy days. Pointless, but crappy. Oh well, what else could I expect?

The barn sucked, just a bad day to be there I guess. Ugh. I don�t even want to go into it. It just sucked. It�s not like anything happened, but still� When I�m asked by B arb to hit her over the head with a crop until she�s unconscious, you know it�s all going horribly� And then the awkwardness at the end of the night when I was going into the tack room to finish tack cleaning and I hear M ike and B arb arguing. Yeah, fun. So I hesitate and then just go in because while I�d have preferred to have nothing to do with it (aka hide out in the isle way until it was safe I ended up going in, slowly, which caused M ike to walk out, thrilled. You know what? I really didn�t care. I just wanted to clean the fucking tack so I could leave. I don�t think B arb cared all that much, apologized for it and then for Mike rushing me to get off the horse at the end of the lesson� Ugh, tonight just sucked and left me in a real bad mood. And now I think I have a tick bite. Bump on my neck that HURTS! What do I do?????

I just want to�. Oh forget it.

Hopefully I can just go to bed and forget anything exists. Grrr.

You know what? Fuck life. It�s really overrated sometimes.

"Disarm"

Disarm you with a smile

And cut you like you want me to

Cut that little child

Inside of me and such a part of you

Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what i choose is my choice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile

And leave you like they left me here

To wither in denial

The bitterness of one who's left alone

Ooh, the years burn

Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what I choose is my voice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you



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