2004-01-26 : 6:59 p.m.
My life is falling apart


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Sometimes I just wonder if my life is completley screwed up. I know it's not, screwed completely that is, but it's still a valid question.

I am determined not to exile myself from the rest of the world. Of course, this determination comes as I sit here in my dorm room, door shut, hearing Evanescence's "My Immortal" through the paper thin walls, though to my defense, I'm watching the news which IS a connection to the outside world. Not only have I started watching the news again, I actually went online and read up on the democratic candidates for president. I like Kerry, Edwards, and Lieberman. Good for me! I have an opinion! If I were to vote today, I'd probably go for Kerry. Edwards has the "Kennedy-esque-ness" to him, but for now I'll settle for him as a VP. As for Lieberman, it's sad to say he has no chance. I've always liked him too. Anyway, back to me not exiling myself as I sit here locking out the world, I can't say it'll all work, but I'll try, at least I'll try in my own way.

I finally got my camera. After UPS continued to be stupid, I finally chose to go pick it up down at the warehouse in West Chester. I got lost on the way down there and, I got lost on the way back. However, I did survive and arrived home safely, camera and all.

I went to Ryerss on Saturday, just for a couple of hours, but I went. That's something I haven't done in a while. (side note: the young and the restless and voters? wtf?) I mean, It's not that I haven't been there (another side note: "My Immortal" is STILL playing!!!! and I hear noise in the hall. Kat better not be back...), I have on Tuesdays though not for the last 2 weeks, but on the weekends, it's been since September. Why? They used to do stalls on Sat., but at this point, I don't even know why else. But anyway, it was really good to see people, Kaitlyn and Mo and Jo, as usual. I just took pics and harassed Kenny, but it was fun.

I sent the pics out that night and actually because of that talked to people I haven't in a while (sent a couple emails to Amelia, got emails from Jackie and Susie) so that's a good plus for me. I don't know, my life is so screwed up. I don't even get it anymore, I don't even try to.

It snowed but not enough to cancel school. That really killed my day. I was just hoping to have the day off, but no such luck. I cut my first two classes but had to go the remedial english (that's my new name for freshman english part two. the hell that we must suffer though) because I had an essay due. Ugh. He is such a jackass. I actually want to cry just thinking about it.

I have to give a speech tomorrow, but have yet to even start planning it. I am going to screw this up so bad. And the sad thing is, I really don't even care. I am becoming my own worst enemy.

So anyway, here I am now. Kat's not here. She went home for a funeral Friday morning and has yet to come back. Actually, that very good with me. I'm just enjoying the time and room to myself.

You know what my mom and I decided? New Jersey is the most pointless state. We don't need it! I mean, it's already split down the middle so why even bother keeping it. North Jersey and South Jersey are too different worlds. North relates with New York and South with Pennsylvania (Philly in particular). So why not get rid of Jersey all together? Annex it. Send the North to NY and the south to PA. Makes so much more sense. And, to solve the whole "flag problem" this would cause, just bring Puerto Rico into the states. There we go.

Ugh, I'm telling you, there is a worldwide conspiracy against me. My life sucks.



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